Close the door,
and sit down,
and breathe,
and now that we are home,
we can start,
asking ourselves those questions.

Let’s start:

One, two, three, four…

Was I wrong?
Were my words hurtful?
Did I laugh too loud?
Was I too loud?
I should not have said that.
Should I?
Did I talk about myself too much?
Did I talk too little, did I not make myself clear?
Will I be misunderstood, again? Will I be shunned?
What is moderation?
Why did I,
why did I,
why did I breathe?

Do they hate me now?
Why did they talk to me like that?
Or was it just normal?
Why did they look at me that way?
Why did they exchange glances?
Did they just look away?
Why did they keep looking at their watch?
Why did they have to go home? Was I boring?
Were they being sarcastic, was that sincere?
Should I ask, should I not?
Why did they,
why did they,
why did they breathe?

Should I just sit here, in silence,
listening to my buzzing brain?
Should I not?

Oh, I should, I should.

This might take a while.

And we will do this again, tomorrow.

But nothing else matters.
Nothing else.